last night:

it was dark
i old fashioned
to the church parking
lot.

saw some tail lights
and thought of
yours.

we idled for a while
didn’t near cause
i’d not want to try
too hard.
hoped you’d get out of
that car.

but they pulled away.

was a van
a church van
and i said to myself
“fuck you, jesus.”

What i remember:

i was drunk.
i was in the kitchen.
i was lookin for something that
confirmed this conviction.

then i realized it was on the
screen

even worse was
a cartoon. but then i
told myself to breath. told
myself all them formats
all those books i’ve been readin
and have “read”
made me sure that everything
i’ve thought was “meaning”
was just shit i’ve done
thought bunch, but never said,
and never said cause who
says things nowadays –

broke my out-dated-pencil-lead
anyways.

who says those–
wait   true, to, themselves.

them –> things.
nowadays.

so tired from feelin this cause but not
without a cause. to keep on?
well, i know verses in our arms.

mail call

old tins & jim carroll

puffin food & pine cones, for the birthday girl

Mistaking dog barks for distant laughter. No, sirens? No. It was laughter. The first month here I mistook a bug zapper for wood sounds. If you are wood sounds, please come take me now. 12:46 AM 7/o1/09

01. The Walkmen – No Christmas While I’m Talking (Bows & Arrows, 2004)

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02. Ilyas Ahmed – Earn Your Blood (Goner, 2009)

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03. Spacemen 3 – Walking With Jesus (The Perfect Prescription, 1987)

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04. Lady Lamb And The Beekeeper – Until I Am Bones (Samples For Handsome Animals, 2008)

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05. Luke Rathborne – Dog Years (Unknown, 2007)

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06. Television – Marquee Moon (Marquee Moon, 1977)

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07. Discovery – So Insain (Discovery, 2009)

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08. Casiotone For The Painfully Alone – I Love Creedence (Etiquette, 2006)

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09. Red House Painters – New Jersey (Red House Painters 2, 1993)

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10. Luke Rathborne – Carousel (Unknown, 2008)

Unfortunately I don’t have a copy of this song. Too bad, really. It’s the perfect end note.

Enjoy.